Depressed and Single at Christmas

December 14, 2016

I am happily writing this blog in a coffee shop in snowy Boulder, Colorado while my family hangs out and is slowly winding down their evening. This is the second year in a row that I am able to be home for Christmas and I am all too aware of how fortunate I am to talk to my parents face-to-face while my nephews play with the Yodeling Pickle that I got them (why, yes, the Lichens family shares a weird sense of humour).

For a good three years, I was unable to go home for anything as I had no money and little in the way of vacation time. As a single guy, this was a difficult thing to bear especially as more and more of my friends were growing their own family and I was feeling more and more alienated from the seasonal cheer I was supposed to exhibit. The very last one, 2012, my untreated depression started to make me afraid of crowds to a point that I missed the Christmas Eve mass and was sure not going to go the following morning. I started taking cannabidiol, but that didn’t help. In fact, that Christmas I had one of my most intense let’s not talks. These talks are familiar to many who suffer mental anguish wherein you start to run out of reasons to take your own life and then must decide let’s not end our lifeeven though living hurts. I don’t tell you this for sympathy, my dear reader, but to tell you that I do know the pain of being alone and single at Christmas. If you are also suffering the pains of the mind, you know also how the darkness of winter can so easily overcome the glittering lights of the Christmas octave.

There are, no doubt, some of you who are reading this who have no family to go home to even if you have the funds to travel. While there are others who, either through divorce or other tragedies, are having an empty place at Christmas that was once filled with some semblance of family. No matter what, it’s a painful place to be and I know it far too well. However, I am not here to remind you of something that is far too familiar as much as to offer some things that have helped me and to also offer those who are more fortunate a glimpse of what your neighbor may be enduring.


At this time of the year, I often contemplate the Christ child in the cave with a tired, weary, and perhaps even frightened Joseph and Mary looking over him. How often we’ve passed by a Nativity set or seen the Christmas pageant without even thinking of the strangeness of the Lord of the universe, the Word of God who was in the beginning of the world, sleeping in a place that was previously used to house and feed livestock.  Those very hands that would cure the blind and be nailed to a cross were now too small to touch the creatures of the earth that once laid in that cave. Christ would say, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay his head,” but that was even true at the very beginning of His earthly life. The Holy Family was in the most humble of circumstances and yet this was what the angels would call attention to and what the prophets had promised.

Joseph had taken on the heavy burden of looking after Mary and this new child and he would later have to flee to Egypt; a land his ancestors fought so hard to escape had now become a refuge for him. We don’t know a lot about St. Joseph and we understand that he was not necessarily a man renowned for his heroism in his own life but that was not going to stop him now and his bravery and sense of duty would allow for the world to receive the One who would redeem all of us.

Then there is Mary, the woman that many have called the Joy of all Who Sorrow. This Lady was now the Mother of God and was to now carry the burden of raising this child and to ultimately see his painful and humiliating death.

I bring up this image because the Incarnation is that singular thing that has kept me a Christian through all the loneliness and hardship. The God who could have been born a ruler or a hero had instead such a great love for us that he took on our lowly nature in order to redeem it. I wonder if any of us were to have stumbled onto a homeless God living in a cave with animals if we’d be able to even comprehend what was in front of us. Would we be offended that the Lord of all Creation would not have thought to even provide a house for he and his parents? Or would we be disgusted at the idea that all our hope rested in this manger that barely qualified as a shelter?

The love that Jesus had for us was not one that wanted to merely rule over us as some cosmic despot but was instead one that wanted to experience our most frustrating and humbling times to show us that holiness was possible no matter where life left us. This God did not undergo His birth, life, death, and resurrection just to leave you alone but is indeed with you in your loneliness, despite how distant He may seem.

If you are able, try to contemplate a Nativity scene or an ikon and think of that very first Christmas that seemed all but jolly and festive. Think of the ways you might be like Joseph to a family, helping them with their burdens while they can also ease your own loneliness. This is difficult in our modern society, but it is not impossible.


While I have had to be away from family for Christmas, there was one family that acted as a domestic Church and welcomed the stranger that was me. They always made sure I had a place to eat, drink, and celebrate the season. They were a small part of God’s grace, making sure that I didn’t merely exist in the shadows. This is a task many families are afraid of undertaking for fear that their home may be too chaotic for the childless. For me, and many singles, this was never an issue for the many noises of children and adults at Christmas are better than the silence of a small apartment. So, welcome who you can and be willing to accept the welcome of others.

As a single person you are also able to help in ways that a family cannot. There is a part of all of us that desires to be wanted, to be needed, and you’d be surprised how well-received your own offers for assistance and help can be. Can you cook a meal for a low-income family and bring them some small items for the octave of Christmas and the New Year? Or, if you are suffering from a lack of funds, see what charities around you need an extra set of hands? If that’s not possible, then go to Mass and ask for an opportunity to help your parish and your neighbors and God will surely find you one. In my own life, showing kindness has meant all the difference when I have those let’s not talks.

If you have a family, try to find those who would spend the holidays alone and let them know that they have a place at your table. Don’t worry that the house is not clean enough or that your children may be chaotic messes. Merely letting people know that they are wanted is the greatest of all gifts and it can seem small to you but can make a world of difference for your single friends. If you give it enough time they will not be that single man or woman from work or church but will be a friend and perhaps a small but not insignificant part of your house.


To you my single friends and my readers who are right there with me, I wish you a blessed and happy Christmas! Christ is born and lives among us and He shall not depart. For all of you who continue to read my work, you are a great and joyful part of my life and I thank God that you are on that other side of the screen.

Michael J. Lichens is the Editor of Catholic Exchange, book editor of Sophia Institute Press, and blog editor of St. Austin Review. When he’s not revising and editing, he is often found studying and writing about GK Chesterton, Religion and Literature, or random points of local history. He holds an A.M. from the University of Chicago Divinity School and a BA from The Thomas More College of Liberal Arts. You can find him blogging at Catholic Coffee Drinkers or find him on Twitter @mjordanlichens or facebook. This post is reprinted with permission. 

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  1. Simmary says

    Sounds as though you’re happily settled, and I thank God you are. But my friend & I are both in our 80s,single by consecration and childless. I have no close family and hers are all busy in their individual households. We have a friendly church, but there’s a lot of the Days of Christmas that isn’t church.

    And we have problems. My friend is slipping into increasing cognitive impairment, and we frankly would rather be dead. No we won’t kill ourselves,nor each other, but the dying process and finale is the only sure thing to anticipate. Please be more realistic about the situation of some of your readers. There’s an ad on this page urging me to “join the Gentleman’s Society.” Thanks, but we’re Gentlewomen.

    Enjoy your Christmas

  2. PJ Webber says

    Hi, Michael… Some friends of mine have a son who was also lonely and hoping to meet a good Catholic wife. Through the Catholic Match services, he found the right person and is now happily married. There is someone out there looking for you. Let’s pray to Good St. Anne that she brings you together.

    • Larry says

      PJ Webber, your response is baffling to me. It’s exactly the kind of attitude that singles dread hearing. He said nothing about his dating status or desire for a wife or girlfriend. At the present time, he seems to be happy and not battling depression. Why not leave it at that? Why promise him that “someone out there is looking for him?” How exactly is that supposed to be helpful? Why do you assume that’s what he wants?

      • Larry says

        And if you’d bothered to check Mr. Lichens’s personal blog which is linked to here, you’d see that a) his depression is chronic, b) he never once says anything about whether a “good Catholic wife” would make a difference – I assume he’s smart enough to know that it wouldn’t, and c) this article was written in 2014 so I don’t expect him to respond to any of the discussion here.

  3. A. Nonymous says

    Thank you. I also have chronic depression and come from a family of people who suffer from (mostly untreated) chronic depression. I’m married for nearly 20 years and have two fantastic teenagers who are still as excited about Christmas now as when they were three. There have been many years I’ve wanted to go to bed on Dec. 23 and not wake up until Dec. 26.

    I’ve had the “let’s not…” conversation with myself, laying in bed on Christmas morning, while I’ve been struggling to make myself get out of bed and put on a happy face, so I didn’t ruin Christmas for my family. I’ve counted the hours until I could justify hiding in the bedroom for the rest of the day (my sister still does this). And I know that there have been times that my wife has known it was a happy face and has locked herself in the bathroom to cry.

    Single or married, I’m truly glad for you that you made it through the darkness that the holidays can be for those of us with depression. And I’m glad you’ve got a loving family to support you through it.

  4. Tina says

    Although I am a lady who is single, I wanted to thank you for this post. I see all of the things going on in the Church and in the world today, and it makes things seem even more dark. God bless all of you.

  5. Marcel says

    Yes, Tina! Things aren’t good in the world today and confusion grows bigger as days go by and we don’t know what to
    expect! One thing is for sure and that is that we must be more careful than ever, and I’m telling from my own experience
    as my personal world came to pieces and darkness began to maraud me in the form of the weirdest and most bizarre
    people you can ever imagine as being alive and walking on earth today. But, yes. There they are and they are certainly
    not good. I’m also a single man and I’m the loneliest human being on earth without hope of ever getting someone to talk
    to me or befriend me. I’ve been years and years looking for my lady and not a sound of her yet, but I don’t give up because
    I know she is there somewhere. I just have to keep on looking and making a real effort, as all good things unequivocally
    require, because she is certainly there, somewhere, right now. Whatever is going on that is causing all of this darkness is
    certainly not normal. And I’m sure that at a given moment we don’t know when, our eyes are going to be opened to something
    and that something is big. So the best thing to do is to make all efforts no matter how big, to find your soulmate and love
    each other a lot and bring children to the world, sons and daughters, because that is our only hope and the very thing that
    this evil something is definitely and seriously opposed to, as I can tell from my own experience as attacks against my person
    are stronger and more direct and more evidently caused by the fact that I’m seriously trying to find my future wife. Whatever
    it might be, there can be no doubt left in my mind that it is attacking me for trying to find my lady. I’m sure that others will
    experience the same at a some point. But let us no be scared! Don’t give up hope, Tina! And I hope I can get to meet people
    like you! God bless you!

  6. Anonymous says

    Well that certainly sucks altogether. Doesn’t it? Well i would really say so since there are many of us very good innocent men out there that would’ve wanted to be in a relationship had we met the Right Good Woman for us which unfortunately it still hasn’t happened yet. Who would ever want to be single at anytime let alone Christmas?


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